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Day 350 | The feeling of unknown

When I woke up this morning I wasn’t sure if it was the weekend or not. Something felt different. Was I late for something? Did something happen last night? Then I realised that what was different is the fact that as of right now I’ve got no freelance commitments.

The last year has been filled with lots of exciting things, but it has been within the frame of normal working hours and having to show up some where at a certain time. What felt different this morning was not knowing what’s going to happen next. I’m so used to going from one freelance contract to the next that it feels strange not having anything booked in. Should I get another contract? Can I really be off? Have I don’t my maths right? That’s what hit me a little this morning and also the feeling of “I’m actually doing it”. When people now ask me where I work I no longer have my usual answer “I freelance at….” to give. It’s all of a sudden become a bit more real. Lovely but real.

Time is mine to control right now, and to make the most of. I’m both excited and a little nervous about where that will land us by the end of January. Though the risk is very minimal – I can always go back to freelancing sooner rather than later – it still changes the game. I’m not taking this time off to have a holiday. I’m taking it off to really go for it during this month. And that is a little scary. Very exciting but scary. This is where it really begins.

Tomorrow – Day 351 | Week 50 summary

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